Finding I

I of #AtoZChallenge

It's a classic case of 'Lost and Found!'

I realized that I had often lost I and found I.

Over the years it had been normal.

To lose I.

To find I.

Eventually I always learnt something in the process!

Only I didn't know when was I lost and when I was found.

It was the 'butterflies in the stomach' feeling that I always got.

Before losing I.

And just before finding I.

Did I look forward to getting lost?

Or did I look forward to being found?

Then why would I fret around all over the place, when I was lost,

wondering where I would be lost, forever?

Especially when I knew that I was going to be found again!

It's funny!

I can be very funny sometimes.

When I get lost,

I reach some-place new.

At times it's some place old.

But what I learn is New!!

And that's the fun in getting lost!

And when I is found,

I is jumping with excitement.

Not just because I is found.

But because I found something new!

And because I learnt something new about I!

And then with a newfound I,

I build things and feels things and experiences new things!

And then when I is in doubt,

I goes back to the memories of I being lost,

And then I finds I all over again!

I realized,

To be found,

I needs to be lost.

I hope I is not scared anymore!

I loves I,

And I hope I knows it.

And I will never leave I alone :)

(image courtesy: Google images)

Comments

Prasanna Bhave said…

'I' like it 😊

April 13, 2020 at 12:13 AM

Viyoma said…

I really the concept of I.
And I am coming back for more to read what more this I has to say.

April 13, 2020 at 4:33 PM

Amruta said…

Thank you so much Prasanna and Viyoma :)

April 14, 2020 at 2:15 PM

Amruta said…

Means alot Viyoma :)

April 14, 2020 at 2:16 PM

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